No one knows how frustrated I become when I can't think of any brilliant idea.
No one knows how stupid I see myself when I can't write.
No one knows how I wish I can put all my ideas to words, sentences, and paragraphs - coherently.
No one knows how I hate the f*cking blinking cursor that's making me feel the stupid-est person on God's green earth because I can't write!
No one knows.
No one knows this blog either.
Labels: personal
What can you expect from whirlwind romances? One moment you're kissing, the other you're saying goodbye. No rules. No expectations. No commitment. Just a game of mixed emotions. :)
Labels: love, shoutout
He once said that a person will need to have at least P1 billion on his campaign chest in order to keep himself adrift in the tight 2010 presidential race and he is none other than Nacionalista Party standard bearer, Manny Villar. He seems true to his belief as we see his abundant advertisements on TV, Radio, Print and so much as online. His TV ads even took over fast-food chain ads last year. He gave away the headline-creating six house and lots on a noontime show and now sponsoring an orange-filled game show on the rival program giving away P25,000 almost everyday. The Senator all the more surprised everyone as he got the support from the Three Kings: Dolphy, Efren "Bata" Reyes and Willie Revillame, making him a king himself -- The King of Self Promotions. Seeing how Manny spends his money he then claimed to be the fruit of his Sipag at Tiyaga or is it C-5 at Taga, how can he ever get it back? Will he ever get it back? Where? Well, does a presidential seat really takes a billion out a candidate's pocket? Does one even really need to be a spendthrift billionaire to rule this country?
Just a thought. Is Manny Villar really imitating Erap's Para sa Mahirap strategy or is he the fulfillment of Eddie Gil's promise? Some are wondering, is he just a Pilantropo or a new breed of Pilantrapo?
Labels: Villar
What was the worst concert you went to?
Hm. I don't know. Maybe the Itchyworms concert at school. Not that I hate Itchyworms. I actually like them. It's just that I don't feel like going to a concert that day. I just laid on the grass carpeted field the whole night.
I know right, it takes an ADDICT to be featured on a site. Haha.
I haven't opened my Plurk account for ages and I was flabbergasted to see that I already have:
21 alerts
320 friends (I know I have more back then)
141 fans (I really have more back then! Haha.)
and 0.00 karma ( I was even over Nirvana back then.)
Yeaah, but that was BACK then.
Back when I was still addicted to Plurk-ing. Haha. :)
Back when I feel so bad whenever my karma went down.
Back when I'm literally in Nirvana as it goes up.
Back when I don't get enough sleep.
Back when I needed ATTENTION.
Back when I wanted everyone to know everything I do.
Back when I feel I need to do it.
Back when my life is the Internet.
Back when my best friends are my online buddies.
Back when all I care about is my Yay/Boos in Candy Mag's Teentalk.
Back when I felt I don't belong.
I'm just glad I got it over with now or I'll be the shallow girl still living in the cyber space.
Anywho, here are my BEST Plurks. Haha. :]
NOV 14, 08: my 5 year old brother announces na wala siyang pasok. HAHAHA! Tamad
NOV 22, 08: My brother: Ano ba yan? Ako: Wala. My brother: (scrolls the page down) Ang taas ng karma mo, walang hiya ka kasi. LOL!
NOV 23, 08: hates it when he doesn't even send a single message. (talking about Russel here. :D)
REPLIES:
| makuusays | oo nkkparanoid yan aw |
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| veronika ♥ | yeah..ang pangit pa nun..yung pakiramdam pag tinikis mo xa tas maparanoid k no? |
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| Supergirlsays | he even said to me last night na di niya maexplain sarili niya pag di niya ako kausap then what.. |
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| Jeshiiko | prang gs2 mo nlng m2log forever at magising pag magttxt n sya |
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| Supergirlsays | Jeshiiko: Actually, natulog na nga ako, hoping for his text when I wake up pero wala pa din. |
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| Supergirlsays | magtetext din naman yun. siguroooo. |
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| veronika ♥ | ahehe pero he will find time ,..pag ganun |
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| Supergirlsays | yun na nga eh. First time kasi tong hindi talaga siya nagparamdam |
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| veronika ♥ | awwww..may something..maybe he found out about the other guy |
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| Supergirlsays | hindi naman. kasi wala naman talagang 'other' guy. gumugulo lang yun sa utak ko. |
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| Supergirlsays | I'll just go wit the flow. Ayoko na lang mag-isip |
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| veronika ♥ | di ba pag network busy?patay yung phone or ginagamit? |
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| Supergirlsays | Ay, mali pag the subscriber cannot be reached yun |
Oh. Tsaka na yung iba. Ang dami palaaa. Hahaha! :)
Labels: internet
TODAY: I'll work for something I believe in. :)
I was asked to fill up a blue form for my application for graduation. So, I traveled back to Nueva Ecija last Friday to be able to pass it before the deadline on Monday. :)
An item on the form really made me smile. It was asking how many years have I been studying in CIC. It has been 17 years. Seventeen long years and by April 8, 2010, my relationship with CIC will change from a student to an alumni.
I thought at first that it would be hard, as in breaking-up-with-your-first-boyfriend hard to say goodbye to the life I had in CIC and here in Nueva Ecija but I never thought it would be harder. My upcoming graduation is pressuring me -- I need to find a job soon. My dreams are right beside me but it is out of reach because I can't compose a single article when I use to write plenty. My team and the school paper still don't have a new EIC to replace me. These things are frustrating me at the moment. I'm just thankful that because despite of everything else, I know Daddy is here, helping and guiding me. I can feel him. He's always around.
Let me just share with you my final Editor's Note. :)
Hard to Say Goodbye
Few months ago, I just turned 20 and I hated it. I felt so old because I wanted to be a teen forever. In the fantasy world, it would be very possible, I can live with Peter Pan in Neverland, take a sip from the fountain of youth, or like every girl wants nowadays -- ask Edward Cullens to bite me. Unfortunately, I don't live in books, films and myths, I live somewhere else and no one, I mean, no one in my world can escape ageing even if we use tons of beauty creams. We will definitely wither and pass away. Perhaps, that's why we, human beings must all live our lives to the fullest ecause there are no sequels, no rewinds and forver young is a lie.
Twenty Years. Two decades. Two and zero. After some realizations, I can now truly accept the reality that I'm not a teen anymore, that I will have a bigger and better life ahead of me and that in months, I'll be leaving my second home for 17 years, CIC.
Graduating is one of the reasons why I wouldn't want to be 20. Not that I want to flunk and repeat all my subjects, I'm just anxious how life would be after CIC. I lived almost all my life in my comfort zone. Just imagine how will a person who never did experience anything but one can manage to go to a different place. Just imagine a person who grew up and come of age in one home leaving for another.Just imagine. Just imagine how hard would it be.
They say, you shouldn't let go of the things you can never live without but what if you have no choice? What if letting go would mean your dream? Would you rather stay to live or leave for your dream?
This is yet that one article I did the hardest, with teary-eyed and heavy breathing. It is because I hate goodbyes, I fear goodbyes, I never want to say goodbye but I'm about to and it's very very hard.
So, before the part should I bid farewell, let me apologize to everyone I offended and express my gratitude to all the people who showed me love and support. I won't name names for I'll have to use the whole paper just to enumerate.
My dear schoolmates, no one knows how much of a sacrifice I did for this job as your Editor-in-Chief for three years, even if a job means getting paid in return for a service rendered, and I received not even a cent. I couldn't care less. This job rewarded me something much more than money, things you can never buy -- happiness and contentment. I enjoyed every minute of serving everyone of you and I hope that even a single article from any of the issues under my watch has touched your lives.
In life, we can only move forward but we can always look back and reminisce. After all, we are all created by our past. I may age unlike Peter Pan but I can think of happy thoughts like him, I won't be able to fly but I know I'll definitely feel the bliss enough for me to wander across the sky, even in my dreams. So, maybe, tomorrow, the day after even the months and years to come, I'll always look back to all the memories I have of CIC and The Immaculate.
Let me leave you with these lines from a song, "In this journey made with you, hand-in-hand, we face a bright new day, to bring faith and hope and love to everyone. Let the Spirit Live! We are CICians, a gift to humanity."
EIC no more,
Biena
Labels: daddy, graduation
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